Working Trip

Life has been hard for me. Wanted a break oversea. Intended to go for a kelong trip to relax and forget all the problems on work and the stupid work politics. Trip ruined!!!

I'm still going oversea. But for an oversea working trip. I'll be going to Qatar on Friday for a week. I'm sort of excitied cos it's the first time I'll be taking a flight for more than 2 hours. Yet, this is still a working trip and I just can't relax and misbehave.

Maybe growing up means more trouble. Trouble of having not enough money. Trouble of wondering who are the people you can really trust and who are the people you can't trust. Trouble of you can never be the real you. Always need to act on the fake front. Pretending to be nice to the people which you hate to core. Trouble of having the people you trust telling you that you should not be yourself. Telling you that you should change your attitude treating the people you hate.

Why can't I just be myself? I never ever wanted to be in the most popular group. I just want to be with you. Having you standing beside me, supporting my decision in whatever thing I do. But the more I trust you, the more I think you are doubting me. Why can't you try to understand me more? Maybe it's like what you always tell me, "We are just different." What you never know is that everytime you tell me that, I just feel that it's an excuse for you. Not wanting to know me better....

We are just different..........